i am a very insecure person... i think i've said that a hundred times already. i know it's something na everyone can't be proud of because it's a sign of weakness. but if there's one thing i can boast about, i'm the type na "yes, i am insecure" pero i don't take it against other people. 'yung tipong i would really go out of my way para manira or whatsoever.
i was born shy. i know a lot of people won't believe me, but i am.
i remember when i was a kid, pipilitin ako ng nanay ko to perform kapag may mga bisita. sobrang hiyang-hiya ako. pero gaganahan lang ako kapag alam kong maraming tao. ayokong nagpe-perform kapag konti lang. i was born shy, but i think i was born to perform. anlabo no?
hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling 'yun, pero i somehow trained myself to grow up having this feeling na i am a perpetual underdog. lagi akong inaapi, parang sa movies. inaapi, pero hindi ako lalaban the way na lumalaban ang kontrabida. ako 'yung tipo ng tao na lalaban ako, pero mas maganda sa paraan na iba 'yung makakapansin. ayokong maging masyadong pabida, 'yung sakto lang.
i'd rather go to a dark corner and shine alone, than go out there where everyone's trying to outshine each other. i hate the mainstream, but deep inside i am dying to be there. so i'd rather create My mainstream and have everyone follow my lead instead.
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wala lang ma-blog. ;-)
next time, magkukwento ako about my lovelife-lovelife-an.
Nobody can claim himself that he is insecure... but you did! Your courage and humility made you what you are now... a shining star! Your weakness made you a better and stronger person. You don't fit to be a follower because you are indeed a born leader! Your love for your family , friends, talent and work will make you a whole person. If you can see insecurity inside that red head of yours... i can see a human being with a good and strong heart with so much love and passion... and so..... they may kiss your ass baby!
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